Anyone else angry?
Hi! I'm new round here. I was nine when River died and I just remember my older cousin crying but when I was in my teens I remembered him and started researching his story. Now, the more I find out about him the angrier I get. I know it's the 'elephant in the room' but why did no one help him? I just feel like everyone cared so much about 'brand Phoenix' that no one gave a shit about River himself. To his family he was a meal ticket and a mouthpiece through which they could voice their opinions, their missionary...Well, what about him? He was over-intelligent and undereducated. He was barely scoialised and had no idea how to interact with people his own age. The life his family imposed on him was so restrictive-for this kid rebellion was eating mars bars and drinking diet coke. He was a sweet naive boy and by forcing him into Hollywood to 'Milk the system' as John Phoenix said later, they basically threw him to the wolves. And as for 'The Children of God'? Again the Phoenix clan claim they had no idea what was going on...total B.S. The clues are all there. River often claimed he lost his virginity at the age of four, refused to talk about the cult and, later on, would tell the directer William Richert he'd hated his 'child sex life'. Before filming the scene in 'Stand By Me' where Chris cries River was having trouble getting into character. Directer Rob Riener took him aside and said "Think about a time when an adult was cruel to you. When they hurt you or let you down." River went away and thought about it, came back, the cameras came on and River fell apart. Speaking about that moment after his death Riener said he'd wished he'd paid more attention to how upset River was, it was obviously a hint of dark things in his past. That kid was abused. I don't want to be comforted by River's death, I'm angry at the people who made him sick, the 'kling-ons' and the myth spinners. River Phoenix was in a crowded room screaming and screaming for help...and everyone ignored him. When he was offered that vial of clear liquid that night in the mens room of the Viper Room it came with a promise 'This will make you feel great'.
I guess he just wanted the pain to go away.
River, I didn't even know you...But I miss you kid. what happened to you wasn't fair, I wish I'd been there, I wish i could have saved you from drowning.